Thursday, June 13, 2013

Dear 21 year old self...


Dearest 21 year old self~
You might not think so right now but you WILL look back on these days and be able to smile.  After all they landed you exactly where you were meant to be...

Just because you didn't finish college, got pregnant at the age of 20, and married somebody that you just weren't in love with and divorced by the time you were 23 doesn't mean that you have failed.
You will think that at this moment in time your world is over but I promise you that couldn't be further from the truth.

You are immature.  You want to party more and spend less time where you should be.  Your wild and free yet you feel trapped at the same time.

You hate yourself but I promise that, too will change.

You are tired and moody often and have actually been falling asleep at the wheel.  Not good. 
You find out that you have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and low thyroid all...  You are not even thirty yet and you feel like you are trapped in a 90 year old body.

You become friends with somebody who inspires you to eat better and work out.  You lose a lot of weight.  You gain more confidence.  Know that this is just the beginning of your journey with weight loss.

You feel a lot of pain.  You are not getting to do what your old friends are doing.  They don't get you.  You don't fit in.  That's okay.  Just know that all these things are happening for a reason and in due time things will definitely start falling into place.

At this point in time you, 21 year old self, would have never dreamed of being happily married again with three beautiful girls. 
But you do. 
You would never dream that you were a full-time workaholic with a side of crazy OCD. 
But you are.
You never would have thought you were considering yourself an athlete or even being a semi-success story and motivator for a lot of women.  Well, 21 year old self I have news for you, you are.  Oh and you write a blog and guess what?  People actually read it.  They actually think you are kinda funny... 
Yep, that happens, too. 

Don't regret the past 21 year old self.  After all it shaped you into the person you were building yourself up to be.  All your struggles, decisions, mistakes were absolutely worth it in the end.
Your life is far from over.  Hell it's just beginning.  Hang on for the ride because it's going to be a wild one...
PS lay off the silver shadow, quit dying your hair jet black, and less liquor it only leads to your head being stuck in the toiled for hours on end.


  1. I hear you on the silver white shadow...damn you Britney Spears. Lol

  2. Love love love this post. If we only knew then what we know now huh? I had my babies early too and even though at the time it seemed like a horrible idea it changed me and made my life so much better. You are right where you are supposed to be.

  3. HAHAHA - oh that shadow... How I remember...

  4. The shadow actually looks good on you!

  5. I started blogging!!! (LesleLu, instagram stalker!) I did this linkup, too! and I think you pull off the eyeshadow pretty good!

  6. I had that shadow too!!! AND....I paired mine with bright blue eyeliner and hot pink lipstick. It went really well with my hair that looked like straw from over dying it! Love you lady!

  7. Loved this Marcy!!!!! Sounds sooo similar to my early 20's. Got married young too!

  8. Quit dying your hair black! Ahhahaha And I love the silver shadow... say whaaa?!

  9. I'm newly 21 and could/should take a lot of this advice to heart :)

  10. Great post lady!! Things always happen for a reason and it's great that you found your amazing hubby and are extremely happy!