I am sure you are thinking what does this picture have to do with Weigh In Wednesday?
A couple of months ago I found out that my Pawpaw, my main dude, had cancer.
Not just any cancer.
It had started originally in his lungs and had spread to his back and tail bone.
It was also in several lymph nodes.
Basically there isn't much they can do for him right now but make him as comfortable as possible.
It is the hardest thing I have had to watch.
Seeing the man you looked up to always and such a hard worker now look up at you from a wheel chair.
Somebody who was once so loving turn angry and bitter.
I can't blame him I would be, too.
I think that is why I have struggled so much recently with my weight.
I have ALWAYS been known to emotionally eat.
When I am happy, sad, mad, etc.
When I found out the news I just turned to food.
It comforted me when nobody else could.
I would exercise to at least compensate some of it but slowly the pounds were creeping back on.
As of July 15th I was back up to 182 pounds.
Almost a 20 pound gain since the end of February.
I was pissed at myself.
How did I let this happen AGAIN.
I felt like I was treading the same water that I promised myself I would never tread again.
Then the #threadeleven and #skinnyjeansfitcamp challenges presented themselves and it was like a light bulb went off.
I was blessed enough to win a free month of online fitness coaching from the amazing Sarah and things are definitely moving in the direction I want them to be.
Which is down.
But more importantly things are fitting better and I feel amazing!
The one question I keep getting asked over and over and over is to share my secret.
Truth is I really don't have a secret.
I am simply tracking my calories (everything the good, bad, and the ugly) in MFP, drinking water like it's my job, and always making time to get my workouts in.
No more excuses.
So far I am down a total of 12 pounds since July 15th.
I am finding that I can adapt in other ways besides food to deal with my feelings.
Food is not my answer.
And if I do eat food I will eat something healthy and within my calorie range.
This isn't saying that I don't splurge from time to time.
I am human.
I just now know my limits better than before.