My neck, my back...

So day three of my new routine isn't really starting out on the best foot...

You know that song, oh shoot how does it go?

"My Neck, my back
I have poison ivy on my vajayjay and my crack..."

Oh wait that's not how it goes?

Well today that is exactly how it goes!

It's like I stripped down to my birthday suit and rolled in it, poison ivy that is.

If I wouldn't lose my job I swear I would take all my clothes off and rub myself all over the carpet at work right now.

So #prednisonepolly is back in the house.
The last time I was on this stuff I gained 10 pounds in a week.

Let's all just say a silent prayer to 3 lb 5 oz premature bebe Jebus that I don't get the munches like normal.

To top everything off exercising that involves sweating right now is out until I can get it under control.

Sweat = itching = scratching

In the meantime I am doing my best to drink tons of water, stay on point with my calories, and not scratch myself to death...

Repeat.

It's like a song stuck on repeat

You know THAT song.

The one song you fall in love with and then listen to it so much you make yourself sick from it.

My weight is a lot like THAT song and the situation I keep finding myself in.

Granted I don't love my weight at the moment.

Although I have dreams of one day being in that place.

That place of repeat where my weight is in a good place and stays there.

It's no secret at all that I have struggled.

I never hide that from anybody or anything.

I started Skinny Meg's summer challenge yesterday.

I did it because for the first time in a LONG time my head AND heart are both in it.

I am ready to change my life.

I pray for the last time but I am no longer making any promises.

Those honestly get me know where.

Baby steps.

I am praying in three months that I can look back on the following picture and not even recognize the person I see...

Honestly I don't even recognize her right now.

Surely that's not me right?

Yes, unfortunately it is.

Months of not listening to my body.

Months of emotional eating.

Months of constantly beating myself up and feeling sorry for myself.

NO MORE.

So you ask what is my plan to become a new and healthier version of myself?

~Stay positive is the most important thing to me.

~Drink TONS of water.

~Use MyFitnessPal to log ALL of my food ALL of the time.

~Get to the gym 3 to 5 days a week but remain active at all times.

~Try my hardest to stay away from night time snacking and week day drinking.

Honestly it's that simple yet seems to be so hard to do at times.

I will be trying my hardest to check in more often because I have sure missed this =)

PS my fav song on repeat right now is...

Happy Tuesday y'all!