Phew!
Hump day already?
Kinda hard to believe time is just movin' and groovin' right along!
SLOW DOWN WOUDJA COULDJA?!
So I have decided for today I would not share my weight.
Well for the main reason that I didn't weigh in.
I told you all a couple of weeks ago that I plan on being in the 150's by my doctor's appointment on November 21st.
I do have a specific number in my head but if the scale starts with the first two numbers being a 1 and a 5 I will be happy.
You know how doctor's scales are anyways...
Bastards.
I just decided I am going to eat clean and workout and leave the rest in God's hands.
I am not going to weigh myself until November 21st.
Yes, that is right.
I have even contemplated giving the scale to my Gran that lives next door just so I won't be tempted.
I even kind of want her to hide it from me.
It is definitely like an addiction for me personally...
Every time I see it I want to step on it.
I know some of it is about the number.
But COMEONNNNNNNNNNNNN already it is A LOT of how you feel.
Today...
Today I feel, dare I say it, FUCKING AMAZING.
Maybe I am still high off that workout I had yesterday?
IONO.
Maybe it's the fact that a co-worker made a comment on how "skinny" I am looking lately?
IONO.
Or the fact that my Hubs can't keep his hands off of me?
IONO.
Regardless I just feel damn good.
Moving right along...
I wanted to share my White Chicken Chili Recipe with those of you who had asked for it!
I got the original recipe from my girl Nat which you can find here.
I did end up adding some extra things like Tastefully Simples Garlic Garlic and Seasoning Salt to spruce it up a bit!
When I ate it yesterday I added just a touch of sour cream.
Let me just say it DID NOT disappoint.
Hey and it's healthy!
In other news I wanted to touch on something I am feeling this morning.
Exhibit A
This is me upon arrival to work this morning.
I was lucky enough to wash my ass this morning let alone actually fix my hair.
This morning really had me questioning myself as a Mother.
Am I cut out for this?
Am I a good Mom?
Gosh, I feel like a horrible Mom!
God trusted me with these three beautiful girls what the hell am I doing?!
Why can't they be perfect little angels and why can't I be 5'3, 110 pounds, and have the house smelling like fresh baked apple pie 24/7?!
I just wish sometimes my Husband could be a fly on the wall.
It is so hard on me to get these three girls ready, myself including, and out the door at a reasonable time.
That's even with me waking up on time.
It's like pulling teeth to get Shelby to listen to anything in the mornings.
Dragging her out of bed is like World War 3.
All while Payton is into the liquor cabinet again and Lauren's in la la land watching the latest episode of Duck Dynasty.
Then the fights...
Oh lawdy the fights.
I was literally hoarse when we left the house this morning from screaming.
I HATE TO YELL.
Hate it.
Sometimes though I lose it and I just don't know what else to do.
Please tell me I am not the only one who goes through this or feels like this?
Please tell me that I am not the only Mama who is one tantrum away from losing myself in a box of Franzia?
This Mama obviously needs a break.
Tomorrow I will be back with some new goals for myself!
XOXO
XOXO
I don't even look at the scale. It is a horrible thing and your a great a mother!! Don't let anyone tell you different. I think you just need a vacation!
ReplyDeleteMorning suggestion...NO TV in the morning before school...A few of my kiddos become TV zombies in the morning if I have it on...so mama made a rule.. no TV or any other devices that need to be plugged in. Give it a try and see if it works. Scales suck!! enough said!
ReplyDeleteIt's not necessarily the scale number it's how you feel girl! You are NOT the worst mom ever. I was a nanny to 3 girls this summer 8, 6, and 4... they fought about every thing every day and by the end of every day I wanted to hit happy hour. Some days were way better than others but they fought until the bitter end. All I can say is separate them. That's what worked for me. The oldest and the youngest fought like hell all the time and I just made one go to her room and the other go to the basement.
ReplyDeleteI had the same time of morning yesterday... don't feel too bad ;)
ReplyDeleteTotally understand not wanting to jump on the scale. Chase your goals & the way you FEEL girl! Go you!
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Sometimes I have my hubby hide the scale from me...but he always puts it in the same place. Good idea to maybe get it out of the house until the 21st!
ReplyDeleteI 'think' this is my first time to your blog, regardless..I was imagining teenage girls at the descriptions of 'dragging out of bed,liquor cabinet, etc', then giggled at those sweet LITTLE girl faces! I have a 5 year old girl..and a 3 year old boy. The drama from the girl trumps ANYTHING the boy can throw at me. Good luck! :)
I could have written this post, well about the kids and mornings - except I have boys. Wish I could say the same about feeling freaking amazing --- sigh...working on it!
ReplyDeleteBut yea I question myself nearly daily about being cut out to be a Mom. What was I, or God thinking?! LOL!! I try sooo hard, but whoa...it's sooo hard! I wonder if my Momma struggled and question herself this much!?
Regardless, you are NOT alone ... you're doing an amazing job, look amazing...and wow..them girlies are SWEET as candy!!! ((((hugs))))
One thing I did when mine were young (my boys are 17 & 14 now) is if they didn't get up easy in the morning or if they argued with me, I took 15-30 minutes off their bedtime. Let me tell ya, when one got mouthy and had to go to bed earlier than the other . . . umm, yeah, the "good" one rubbed it in so bad. The hardest part is sticking to it. Write it down or put in your phone if you have to. So tell them once to get up. If they don't, take 15 minutes off their bedtime. If they don't get up or start arguing, take another 15 minutes off. Once mine kept mouthing off until he had like a 6:30 bedtime. lol One more thing, I let mine "earn back" time. If they do extra chores or go above and beyond they can earn 15 minutes back. It's a win/win. They get extra rest and you can get extra chores done :) Hope this helps!
ReplyDeleteMy husband gives me shit all the time because I am always saying "I'm going to stop yelling today" and then two minutes later the kids are doing everything I asked them not to and I'm running 20 min late, and I'm yelling.
ReplyDeleteI only rely on the weekly weigh in at Weight Watchers. I pay no attention to the scale in the bathroom. As long as you're feeling awesome you're doing awesome!
ReplyDeleteI think I'm also addicted to the scale - good idea to give it away! I really feel your pain when you were talking about your girls. I raised 3 boys and I used to cry at night because I felt like all I did was yell and the more I yelled they worse they behaved. I really thought they hated each other and they hated me. Now they're grown men - 26, 24 and 22 years old. When I hear them talk about their childhood they only talk about good times and how much fun they had and how I was the best mom on the block. Really? I can't believe we actually lived in the same house. Aliens must have taken over their bodies or something! It's hard raising children and the fact that you're questioning yourself means you're a good mom. This too shall pass and it passes faster than you can believe. Stay strong your hard work will be rewarded.
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