Compare and contrast...

Well between one child with pneumonia, one with a nasty virus, along with me being under the weather myself...  this week has been shitastic.

Obviously that's where the lack of posts come in.

Between baby snuggles, wiping asses, and other Motherly duties that we don't get to skip when sick I am lucky to have made it out alive.

Not to mention that the 14 month old has decided she LOATHES "ny ny" time.

I mean HATES it.

She screans bloody murder cries until eventually she wears herself out and falls into sleeps death grip.

My life right now...

A big stress ball of nothing I can be happy about.

I am trying...

Really I am.

But being sick...

Kids being sick...

Then add your sibling going through some pretty effed up shit along with watching your Pawpaw die a little more each day right before your eyes.

Shit just sucks right now.

I want to be positive.

I do.

I am hoping to get there.

Right now if I am being honest with you (and you know that's all I ever am)...

I want to dig a hole and plant myself in it with lots of adult beverages and chocolate chip cookies.

I know... I know...

This is real life and that is not.

Whatever...

 

Hoping that on Monday I can kind of start fresh.

I will also be honest about this.

I am not taking care of myself this week.

I have not eaten right at all as I hardly have an appetite (except for last night when I binged on Skinny Cow Caramel bites and a sleeve of chocolate chip cookies)...

What?

It happens.

 

I am just not in a good place.

I wish I was.

I'm just not.

 

Depressed.

That I am.

 

I don't go back to the doctor until November but you better believe that I will be talking to the ol' doc about how I am feeling and about some happy pills...

At least something to get me out of my funk.

I am not ashamed of that.

If you are judgmental in regards to it then shame on you.

 

So basically that's what I have been dealing with this week.

I am terribly sorry for my absense and many of you have been so kind and reached out.

Dare I say missed me?

Of course I know your missing the sassy me...

Not this me.

 

I will be back next week hopefully better and with lots of things to talk about!

Including some before and after photos, etc.

 

Love all my readers muchos!!!!

 

PS when I am feeling down I always like to do a little compare and contrast...

Last year vs. this past weekend.

30 pound difference.