160

  I feel like I am slowly picking my mojo back up.Sunday I felt like I was drowning in sorrow...Today I feel like my head is FINALLY above water. I weighed in this morning at 160.I fail and ALWAYS seem to forget to take a picture of the scale.You will just have to take my word for it I guess.That is 105 pounds gone.Forever.I am one pound away from the 150's.A couple months ago even that seemed nearly impossible.My next big goal is to try and get down to 152 which would be 30 pounds lost since I recommitted to my journey back in July.I also told myself that by my checkup with the ol' doc at the end of November I would be in the 150's.The last time I was there he was so proud of how far I have come.At the time I weighed 175 and when I told him I wasn't happy with that number he proceeded to tell that 175 may be MY number.I was polite but inside I was pissed off.I wouldn't accept that fact that 175 was MY number.Regardless the number on the scale doesn't define me.I hope it doesn't define any of you either.Regardless we are more than that...It's more how we feel.I still have number goals in spite of it all.I don't think those will ever go away. The proof is in the pictures though...Same exact outfit exactly a year a part.Different hair color, tree trunks are a different size, I can button my sweater, but the biggest difference...I am choosing not to hide my face, and I am smiling. At the end of the day I just want to feel good.I do feel good because I am proud of how hard I have worked to get where I have always wanted to be.I have not been in the 150's since I was 18...HUGE DEAL HERE GIRLS. I hope that y'all are continuing to fight for your own health.I will be back next week with some new goals and things I have going on for myself! HAVE A HAPPY AND HEALTHY HUMP DAY =)